I am so sad......so confused.......

About working.

You see I don't know if I hate my job at dfs. You see, I can be quiet blur at times and my cause the unhappiness of my colleges around me. Then the other bad thing is that it is very difficult to match a part time job outside to it. But you see there is always 2 sides to the picture. The good side about it is mainly because I may be able to get my off days on Mondays when my dear hubby is most likely be able to go out and oit is the only day thatches like to be out. Then the other good part is the comission part in the sense that you can earn more then the basic pay. It is convenient as I need only to take one bus and the food is cheap as there is staff rate. But I really hope for something different that pays more and I don't need to allows entertain people.

Well, it’s been a while since I blogged huh?

Well, I am still trying to find the Chinese input writing software online with little luck so I can’t blog in Chinese or see any Chinese stuff even if I want to. Sad……..
Well, to say the truth, I am starting to feel as though my job may not be that bad after all. I really don’t know what I am thinking about the job stuff. I can’t make up my mind. Well, I think, I won’t be job hoping for a full time job unless it pays better then this. And the other thing is that I will try my best to find some job that is not in the office hours and do if for a month plus or something.

Oh yeah…..since I haven’t blogged in a while, I will have this entry slightly longer.
Watched Alexander with Priyanka on Monday. Watched after the sunset with her and her cousin today. Well, you see, her cousin is from India, and so he is an Indian Indian and according to my dear friend, if she is matched with a Indian Indian, there is a probability that it might be him. Well, good luck my dear friend. He is really quite a typical Indian, going to best to look at computers? Dress weirdly, look older than his age.

“The taste of your lips is ecstasy” it certainly is. I am nearly always thinking about him. Even when I am working. Seeing young couples coming into the shop, sometimes just recalling some of the things we were saying on the phone about whatever this and that……really miss him lots…sob sob. Then we had a mini quarrel just the other night on his birthday. Well, it was about this close good female friend of his whom he hasn’t seen in a long time, will always chat with her when he is in mainland, they met up for about an hour plus, dinner and talk, then she buys him a cake and gave him a present. Off cause I am unhappy, sad, jealous and worried. Well, sad and jealous cause I am not that girl spending his birthday with him. That is the main reason. Then there is this thing about me that is I sometimes will think that that I am somewhat not good enough for him but there is truth and falsehood in this statement at the same time…..sigh…….

Sad sad…. It is nearly 3 months since I last saw him, last felt his warmth and last inhale the smell of him. .. sob sob…….